Thanks for your kind words
It's just . . . I really, truly know that therapy is going to help. I've been in therapy for over ten years of my (admittedly short) life (not all for the rapes, but yeah), and it hasn't ever really helped. I find that I can never even *explain* (as in, find the right words) the problem to the therapist in a way that makes them understand it correctly -- never mind work to find a solution.
Just . . . what else can I try? Body work? Surgery? Hypnosis? I don't know.