Hello there,

I don't know your full medical history, but I am wondering how many episodes of this recurring depression you have had.

I was on Paxil for years and felt great most of the time, but I still had depressions, about eight episodes.

I know you hate medication, but perhaps a different class of drugs is in order, like mood stabilizers. Forgive me if klonopin is one, I am not familiar with it.

I can be so frustrating I know, but I have accepted that I have a mood disorder and that I cannot function without meds. It is the process of finding the right ones and the dosages that is so frustrating.

Hang in there!