I sent an email to my friend for teasing me yesterday. Well now I feel really guilty about what I wrote. I needed to tell her how I felt, but that doesn't mean it feels good. Sure the urge is there. I think I should be punished for writing some of the things I did. I wasn't nice...I told her I didn't confront her about it because I knew I'd snap at her and I don't want to do that even though she wasn't exactly respectful to me.

It's like a double-edged sword. You're damned if ya do, damned if ya don't. I guess I just need to get this all off my chest. I feel like I'm snowballing out of control. First I want to cut cause I thought I hurt a t's feelings. Then I got teased about that and now want to cut because of the teasing. I want to punish myself for possibly hurting my friend's feelings. Things are just out of control.