Ok.
This is for the older of age only please.
Im sorry if you are young and are being abused too by your step father, but I am not here to help you. Sorry.
If you want to here my story...

I was abused by my stepfather at age 6? Maybe? I have learned to block out my life from about 16 years and younger.

I am a man by the way.

I still see him because I love my mother and she does not know of this. or she is ignoring my world (pain).

I have been happily married now for along time and have a daughter I would give the world for.
I would never hurt her or let anybody try. She and my wife know this.

My problem...
I guess my real father was an "***" to be nice. A drunk, mean guy.
I was this same person early on not knowing this. I blame my childhood of course.
My wife is the best. She knows I struggle from time to time of these Demons.
Ive always had these "DEMONS"
Genetics?
Upbringing?
Both?

I fight the booze. Always have. Wife in bed now again with out me because I cant sleep and want more drink.
Struggle.
Always. Anybody?

Someone along time ago said I need to associate with someone of the sameworld.
I have looked and could not find.
Gave up.

But, I am looking again