I m survived till today, but i feel it so hard to start new...
i try to do things to love myself, but energy seems to not listen to me,
and what i think which is correct and helpful that i must do,
when i really go to do that, it turns out to be something else,
or i start to abuse myself again......
so, love myself=abuse myself,
it seems it is such a new lesson to learn,
and so hard to break the old pattern....
R there anyone in similar situations,
and win the game played again and again with ourselves?