Sorry you are hurting so much! Depression can be so isolating.
Is there anyone in your life who knows, who you can talk to? It can be freeing to share that with other people, as long as they are safe to tell.
I hope you are feeling better soon, and thanks for posting! I hope to keep hearing from you on here.
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dailyhealing
"Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it." - Helen Keller
Strange how people who suffer together have stronger connections than those who are most content. –Bob Dylan
“If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.” Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.