For whatever reason, even my letters of recommendation don't help. I never thought getting them would make me hate myself for making my own personal choice. I think I'm just going to start going to the junkyards and taking VW parts, modifying them, and selling them on eBay. At least tinkering with parts will pass some time for me. I do miss the social interaction of actually working though. My self esteem has taken a huge dive because of this situation thank you very much for the link though. I will definitely check them out.