Hi justaseeker, dont be to hard on yourself and thanks for the warning. I need to hear that myself. I have been sober a little over a year. And sometimes it takes what it takes. It took a while for things to get a little better for me. I couldnt even get off the couch. I was also a pot smoker off and on. I know Im a person thats really hard on myself. I hope you feel better and things will get better.