Have you tried meditation?
how about yoga?

I don't believe that therapy is for everyone, but not meaning it's NOT for you.... just that it might not be, is all.

Looking waaay back, for me, I wish someone would have advised me about the tension the body holds and how daunting it can be for the whole self.
The body is now so tense from being as such since 3 years old-- it's work to relax but I'm told there are benefits ---
as a relaxed body will help to relax the mind.

hope you find some healing path that is best for you--
whatever it includes.

fins