Thread: Do I have ASPD?
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Old Aug 20, 2012, 01:28 AM
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I know that most of you aren't doctors, so I'm not expecting a diagnosis here, but I still want some advice, if any of you have some. For quite some time I've been a liar. It has been my way of not getting involved in telling the real story to those around me. (Quite coincidentally, I'm extremely truthful to people I don't know) It hasn't really been a problem as of late, but when I was growing up, I lied consistently.

I don't really have a relationship with my parents because of this. I spent my entire youth / adolescence lying to them, and avoiding meaningful conversations. They've never been anything but helpful to and supportive of me, so I don't know why I've avoided them all this time, but I have. There are some times when I feel like I can't even be around them, almost because I despise them for being so supportive of a son like me.

I've cut off all of my friends. I don't reach out to any of them any more, and they don't reach out to me. It doesn't really matter, because the only time we would spend together would involve either drugs or alcohol. I was using them to get high, or for people to be around so that I wouldn't be alone at a bar. When we would hang out, their views and opinions infuriated me, but I pretended not to care, so long as I could smoke their weed.

I'm somewhat of a womanizer, although as of late I havent' even had the desire for sex. Until about 6 months ago, the usual routine was to find someone out, go on a date and never talk to them again. No matter how the date went. If we had a great date, where she was interested and involved, I still wouldn't contact her again. But recently, I don't even want to have contact with people any more. All I want to do is exercise and go to work.

To those of you with ASPD, does this sound familiar? Could this be another disorder? Is this just a phase in my life that I'm going through? I'm very confused as to why it has had a sudden onset. Until age 26, I was very friendly, sociable and outgoing. But, now I'm introverted, a shut-in and too arrogant to be friendly to anyone anymore. I contemplate suicide constantly, but I want to know if maybe things will change?
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