hi- you say you hav been in therapy 18 months? And with no benifit? I would think about changing therapists. It could just be that you and your therapist are no a great match. Dif personalities mean dif working relationship... also it takes two for therapy to work. Hav you talked to your therapist about your feelings and your longterm goals? Maybe there was a bit of miscommication... best of luck to you... :/