Your post really rings a bell for me, Dez. I do this too, or at least I did at one time. I don't know why exactly, I just know I would intentionally watch something or let myself be exposed to something that reminded me of someone I once loved. It was like a form of torture, and it used to make me physically sick as well as mentally. I have stopped doing it, and now I'm all about doing things that make me feel good, not bring on pain. I think I may have done it when I was feeling numb, and needed to feel something, even if it was painful.

Love,
Sujin