i like my t, and i do like going. when we skip a session i get really anxious about not seeing her. i do see her very often because im in such a bad place. the past 2 sessions shesh been really hesitant about letting me leave. i have to convince her ill be ok. i think im trying to convince myself ill be ok though. i cant pick the point when its too much. it just happens. i know when im about to go to the snow, thats how i can fight it for a short time. but im barely in control of that too