they say it takes what it takes, justaseeker. i had to go pretty far down before i realized my life was totally out of control. i kept saying, whew, didn't get a jackpot this time and kept drinking! course even getting by on a wing and a song was a jackpot too but i didn't know it at the time. thank goodness i didn't die first. today my life is so incredibly grand compared to my drinking years.
do you feel you are ready to take that first step too and stay clean? we are here to support you. we've all been there. addiction causes huge prices to pay for us, jails, institutions and even death for some. the clean and sober life is so much more fulfilling and happy. i'm glad you posted.