At my last session, my t told me to brainstorm some ideas of what I can do to get better. She was quite obviously frustrated.

Today, I went in with very little ideas of what to do. She started out with maybe I need a therapy break or to find a new t, which made me feel awful, lost cause...

But then, we started talking a little more because I said I need to work on accepting some choices I have made in the past. She asked me what choices, and for the first time ever, I told her the one thing that weighs really heavy on me.

All of a sudden, no more talk of a break or a new t. Only talk of guess what, it's time to work on the really hard stuff.

I see her again in two weeks, and the thought of having to talk about that one thing makes me want to run and hide forever.