(((black wolf))),

I am sorry that you are struggling so much right now. Yes, I know that feeling of "not caring" or just wanting it to go away. But you are in therapy, trama work, and this is going to take a while. I wish I could tell you that it will be "all gone" right away, but it is going to take time. However, you will improve "with time". I know that when we experience something bad we can kind of turn ourselves off, that is our way of protecting ourselves. So your brain is only going to let out little parts as to protect itself. It's ok, just give this time. Don't let yourself "feed into" the times when you feel very dark, if you notice, those dark moods pass. It just takes time for the brain to sort through this, sorry but it cannot be rushed.

We are here and ready to listen and support you as much as you need. Take your time in therapy and just know it "will" ease in time.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes