Thanks for the replies...Im in the UK in Lancashire and basically you tell your gp your symptoms which they send through to the mental health team. They then give you a call and tell you where/who they think you should see. Last time it was CBT, the guy messed my appointment up and i got thrown off the mental health teams list. Its taken me over a year just to get referred back to them.

I saw my psychiatrist about 4 times when i was 13 and tbh i dont know why i didnt carry on going...think i couldnt get there and my mum couldnt/wouldnt take me. I think im just going to have to demand to see someone professional this has been going on since 13, my mum even said she thought i had bipolar.

My symptoms are depression, sucicidal thoughts, intense relationships which i find hard to maintain, gambling, spending too much, anger, over emotional, mood swings, i dont know who i am (no ambition because i feel lost and like i dont belong) and my main problem fear of being alone...if i feel i will lose someone i do silly things like lock them in the house...i scare myself.