Thanks so much everyone!

I'm still struggling. I know that what dps said is right, but I find it so hard to allow myself to shut down for a few days and just 'be'. That's just not who I've been in my life, I've always just kept going and fighting and doing. But I know that over the past year and a half, things have become progressively worse.

It's like this never-ending circle of feeling guilty for doing nothing especially when my mind tells me I need to get things done, be on top of everything like I used to be able to be 98% of the time. So, when I do try to give myself time to just 'be', the guilt is so strong and after a few hours of doing nothing, I'm up doing things again and dealing with issues (personal ones), and it hurts both physically and mentally.

I'm thinking of calling our community mental health agency and find out if they will provide me with some therapy. I don't want this to get worse than it is now. I've been thinking about this for awhile now, but as usual, I procrastinate to the n'th degree. Sometimes I just want to smack myself in the head and see if that helps......*sigh*

Again, thank you one and all for your support and ideas. You have no idea how much I appreciate all of you!