Not sure if this belongs here.

For some reason I've been feeling stuck lately. I don't know how else to describe the feeling. A lot has happened to me in the last couple years which has resulted in a crazy last few months. 2 years ago after my daughter was born my husband and I moved our family across the country to live with his family. It was really hard for me to be away from my family and friends but we couldn't afford to live in California anymore. After about 9 months I could no longer take it. I was depressed and stressed beyond my breaking point. I talked to my husband who agreed to move back but we had to stay with friends. That was another stressful situation that I could not handle. Living in someone elses home was very uncomfortable. And on top of that I noticed some problems with my 4 year old. His speech was that of a 2 year old and I knew he didn't always quite understand what we were telling me. So last month my family and I were pretty much forced to move and still not being able to afford silicon valley we had to move a couple hours away. I have never felt so stressed and anxious in my entire life. I'm home all day with the kids which I'm used to but my husband is now only home for an hour before bedtime. Sometimes less. I feel like I'm doing everything, which i'm used to, but now he doesn't even like to help on his days off. I can tell that even 5mins with the kids overwhelms him. So I take over. I feel so lonely and literally like I'm going crazy. I actually have to TRY to motivate myself to do anything. Everything is frustrating me. I know my husband loves me I just wish he wanted to spend more time with the kids. That's all I ask. He ISN'T my son's biological father but he's been around longer than my ex was. He treats my son differently. I know he loves him but he gets frustrated easier with him than our daughter. I can't tell if it's his age but I highly doubt it is. Just yesterday my son woke my daughter up from her nap early and my husband called him an ASSHOLE. I WAS PISSED! I could not believe it. I knew he was frustrated by the lack of sleep and working like crazy but really. Calling a 5 year old any kind of horrible name is so wrong and completely unnecessary. He later apologized but im still a bit skeptical about accepting it. My son recently started kindergarten. I mentioned to the vice principal our concerns about him in hopes that she would understand. She did. But I can't help but worry. He is different around other kids. I can tell he annoys them. He still has accidents. His speech isn't that of a 5 year olds. What if he gets made fun of. He doesn't often understand when someone makes fun of him (I've heard kids before) but he definitely understands being left out. I've seen him cry and fall to the floor because another boy didn't want to play with him. And his school work. I don't remember getting this much homework in kindergarten or any at all for that matter. It even frustrates me. I can't even get him to sit for 2 minutes just to write his name. And when I ask he just melts to the floor, sucks his thumb, and refuses to do anything. I tried just doing a little a couple times a day but he just wants to scribble. But apparently scribbling is a huge no no with his teacher who LOVES putting frowny faces all over a 5 year olds classwork who probably tried his best. Today he came home with his work from class and all of them had frowny faces. There was an announcement about a rewarding Ice cream party. If you knew so many letters and the sounds they make you'd get 1, 2, or 3 scoops of ice cream. And those students who couldn't do it would not be able to participate. I STARTED BAWLING WHEN I READ THIS! I knew he wouldn't be one of those to participate and I can only imagine how he will feel when he can't. They also hold kids back in kindergarten at this school.......................UGH! There is just so much I can't get off my mind! It's clouding my mind all day and I just can't stop. My emotions are everywhere content one minute and pissed the other. Crying about everything. I don't even know what to do with myself half the time. I find myself sitting in the same positions for hours after telling myself I'm going to get up in 20mins. I literally feel stuck and like I can't move. I don't know what I'm going to do or when this is going to end. Sorry about the randomness of this I just needed to get it off my mind.