I can't quote on my phone but some of you have hit exactly how I feel. I didn't have the right to ask in the first place, how dare I get too big for my britches, thinking that I deserve anything. I'm doing it right now by saving up money to get cna training from a school instead of calling the local nursing homes to see if they offer free training. I know that some do, but I only feel entitled to things that I pay for/clearly earn.