I am sorry for all of the things u are going through it sounds like u hav anxiety mixed into all of this chaos. Hav u ever heard of pharma Gabba? It is a natural anxiety supplement that u can buy at a pharmacy or a super supplements. I think you should breathe, and when things get chaotic, take a step back, reflect on the good things, and hang in there. Take time to do what you want- even if that is popping in a movie for the kids while u go online, or lay down with a book, or something. Just a time out... Best of luck!