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Originally Posted by CantExplain
The therapeutic way is not to get your "parts" under control, but to love them.
That takes time, of course.
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That seems like a very foreign concept right now.
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Originally Posted by notz
An expression I like...once a pickle, never a cucumber again.
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I think this should be explained to you before you start therapy. I understood how to be a cucumber... I don't get how to be a pickle.
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Originally Posted by SoupDragon
I could have written most of your post myself, single mum, professional, good functioning on the outside, good at reading others and meeting their needs, but when it comes to "me" I don't have a clue.
Early on with my T the younger "me" was mentioned (by T) - I have a strong loathing for her and in my head could easily destroy her - since then realise I have a lot of negative emotions towards her, including feeling threatened by her (too long to post) - so I really get that feeling of despising her.
She has been off limits to talk about, but recently on my retreat I did some meditation and made myself think of her and to try and feel kindness and compassion to her - she was / is afterall only a child.
I suddenly became very emotional and did for a few seconds experience some warmth towards her. Since then I am back to wanting to push her well away from me, but I guess my experience at least raised the possibility in my head that I can have a different relationship with her.
I think in order to resolve that "self hatred" then it has to get worse for a while with T - for me it is hard to look at her and of course I am going to therefore have some negative emotions. But I hope in time that I can slowly make friends with her with T's guidance and then I hope that my life will start to feel more stable.
You may want her to disappear, but maybe it is significant that she is taking up more space in your head right now. I believe that things come to us when it is time and we are ready to look at them - it might not be easy, but maybe this is going to be a significant time for you.
 Soup
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Thanks so much Soup for sharing. I never thought of the part of me that I despise as being the younger me...but thinking of it that way does make some sense. It doesn't make me any happier about the situation though.
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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions
Yes! Yes! Yes!!!
I can relate to despising ALL of those parts of me as well....AND I survived quite well without those parts of me for most of my life....AND those parts became more evident when I began therapy, which causes me to hate those parts even more and want them to GO AWAY.
I can SOOOO relate. I am struggling with this one as well....and sometimes, I'm able to put those parts away again....but am wondering if that's the healthy thing to do. I wish I had the answers....
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I struggle with that too. I thought I was normal and healthy before therapy. So now with all of these new feelings and emotional needs and junk... It seems so abnormal and when I put those parts away and revert to my pretherapy behavior....it feels so normal...but is it healthy?
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Originally Posted by earthmamma
Therapy makes us aware. We are already despising those areas of our life. Without awareness though we can project them and exPereince the world around us as horrible and not fully enjoy our life. Better to have awareness so we can heal rather then project.
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Very thought provoking because I have learned since being in therapy that I do project alot.