i've recently been avoiding mirrors (more) recently. i always had a problem with my skin. i HATE it. my face & my body. i had horrible acne ever since middle school and now have battle scars from it.
i also have eczema which i was born with; it's controlled right now, but it gets very angry during season changes. i was once put on oral steroids, because i had such outbreaks that caused me to scratch my skin raw in my sleep. my ex used to tape socks to my hands so i wouldn't rip my skin apart. it's a lot better now, but i still have inflammations and i'm now getting some of it on my face which does not add to the acne/acne scars i have. i wish it was possible to get a skin transplant, though it sounds absurd.
i also have a BUNCH of (food) allergies in which i'm supposed to stay away from - soy, fish, peanuts, treenuts, gluten, grass, almost all types of trees, dairy sensitive; which sucks because i already HATE eating, i just find eating to be such a hassle.
lastly, i am very unhappy with my weight. i know i'm not overweight according to any and every chart there are out there. everyone i know calls me crazy when i tell them i'm fat or that i feel fat, but to me i AM fat. i'm the biggest i've ever been - sure a lot of it is muscle mass and water weight, but that doesn't justify the fact that i feel FAT and i don't want to wear anything else but yoga pants/shorts.
i can never bring up my issue with my weight, because i get a huge lecture every time i do and many people bring up the issue that i might be suffering with body dysmorphic disorder (BDD), but i don't know if i agree with that or not....

is there anyone suffering with BDD? and if so insight would be very much appreciated.