Thank you, it is true that I just felt like it - not, I did not feel like it. I later spent the whole day unable to sleep and with a crushing non-migraine headache from lack of sleep. I had to skip work (this is a couple of hundred dollars as I am temping and do not have paid sick days.) I slept all Monday. Now I cannot sleep again, even with Temazepam - it gives me one hour of sleep instead of 7-8 as usual. I was just, in that state of mind, too hard on myself. I do not even know if I would be able to go back to work tomorrow... I have just ordered cat food and litter from Amazon for roughly what I would have made yesterday had I slept during the weekend, and I missed an opportunity to prepare for a tough interview. So things were just going bad - no wonder I did not feel up to being generous.