Things have gotten a little better. My husband is still a bum, but my best friend (who until recently had been acting distant since this all begin) and I had it out and made up so now things are normal between us. I think that was what was bothering me the most. He was always there for me. Always took care of me when bad stuff happened. I talked to him about everything. And then all of a sudden, not being able to talk to him, I just felt soooooo Alone. So, I doing a lot better. Then Ive been in therapy a few times and my therapist is AMAZING. So, yea, I have my days, but mostly not as bad as that day. Its hard with the kids huh? I have two toddlers. Sometimes I cry a lot or shut down and they dont understand so I cant just take a break or nap then I end up snipping at everyone all day. Its gotten a lot better though. You learn how to deal with it. Well, hope things are going well for you. Thanks for the response.