I sent him an email explaining stuff.
I've been having issues dissociating a lot and it's scaring me. Because I don't know what is going on. I'm really confused most of the time. I email him things that I would never write. He says I'm doing a good job when I do this but it just makes me not know how I actually feel or want because it's so contradicting.

I will go. Thank you everyone for saying that it's the best time to go. I can see that, and I need to work through it. Maybe he will let me rip up that paper.

Butterflies - Deal! You go, I'll go. I Think I can I Think I can... *hugs*

Rose - Thank you for relating. It's nice to know I am not alone in how I am feeling.