Hi Debbie,

Wow. That is quite the story. I am sorry to hear that you have OD'd so many times, but read the fact that you have made it out alive as a sign that you are meant to be alive.

You sound quite intelligent and your job history is very impressive. I am glad to hear that you have more goals for yourself on the horizon.....you sound pretty determined, too. Go girl!

Thanks for the post. I'm still not sure what the heck to believe re: dead brain cells & benzo's......all I know is that everyone is different & that I still can't sleep on 3mg of clonazepam. I have resorted to two different over-the-counter meds tonight, in addition to the 3 mg clonaz. I don't care - I need sleep. I am going absolutely crazy. My "dr" has abandoned me, and the script for Imovane (hypnotic) ran out yesterday (no repeats).

I wish that I never EVER started taking any type of psych med 16 yrs ago - all it has done is screwed me up even more. (Had I been more educated back then - and not a naive teen - I would have refused med Tx).

God, am I ever frustrated.

Take care & good luck with everything.

d