Hi. This is my first post. I have had depression for many years. The medications my dr has had me on the past two years have not helped, in fact I feel like they have ruined my life. I have lets bills pile up, cc go to collections, business rev can payments not made, slightly neglected family...on and on. I have also been lying to my husband about the money problems so he won't be mad at me. These medications have me feeling this is all ok because I can forget all this stuffy until I get mail to remind me. Over the past week I had a huge breakdown. Someone I know called mental health about me and my husband talked to them. He has since aleviated some of my stress but i still can't bring myself tocome totally clean about everything. I called dr yesterday to say I need my meds changed but he never called back. I feel so alone even though I have 3 great kids at home. I felt the need to get this all out there but suprise, it didn't help. i have a killer headache and jst want to take somethi g and sleep a while but can't.