BA please get help, from a T & pdoc. As a very forgiving person myself I urge you to find someone willing to help you find your equilibrium. I sat have back and watched others being abused (door mats) only stepping in when it's got to the point of danger. For me forgiveness seems to be the first part of healing. That does not mean I'm laissez faire about how people treat me (or mine). That said there are certain people that get more leeway then others. However I put 100's of miles between me and them. It wont stop even as an adult, you'll justify over and over why hurting yourself is for the "greater good".