Hi Maven -

I have a question for ya: When you mentioned watching things about the end of the world, do you want and/or feel that you want to just 'have it all end' rather than go through ONE more attack? It's just so weird because of this new war that is going on - my partner is so into politics it makes me ill, yet I watch the thing w/him quite often. Last night, someone on CNN or CSPAN made a remark about the 'end of the world' and I was thinking "Damn I wish I was there"; then I went into an instant attack... It's almost like self-punishment, just as someone else stated.... Even thinking about it, the world ending that is, sets me off - right now actually... At the same time I'm thinking at least I wouldn't go through this everyday!! GRRR our lives.......
Thanks Maven -
Niko