Go - tell T it hurts - then say, I can't work on that today - and YOU DO NOT HAVE TO. but being there with someone who will accept your pain, who has experience helping people with it, will be a good place for you - surely better than suffering alone at home. You have carried this burden alone for a long time already.

coming wit ya if you want some company. It *** IS *** so hard, but you are really trying, and that's so brave.