Reece… Welcome to the club! Like my friend ray said, thanks for reminding me how it felt when I finally admitted to myself that I was an alcoholic. It isn’t any fun, but it is where we all began.
Alcoholics Anonymous is where I got sober, it has worked for millions of us, and it will work for you if you do the deal with half the effort you put into getting and staying drunk.
But again, like my friend Rayna said, it isn’t the only path.
Back in my LSD days, I started reading the adventures of Don Juan. He was an Indian mystic living in Mexico. A primer for all class A stoners back in the 60’s. At any rate, here is a little ditty he wrote
"Any path is only a path and there is no affront, to oneself or to others, in dropping it if that is what your heart tells you. Look at every path closely and deliberately. Try it as many times as you think necessary. Then ask yourself, and yourself alone, one question...Does this path have a heart? If it does, the path is good; if it doesn't it is of no use.
Don Jaun
http://www.smartrecovery.org/
http://www.rational.org/plan.html
http://www.secularsobriety.org/
http://www.womenforsobriety.org/
http://www.unhooked.com/index.htm
Look everywhere for that elusive freedom, and here are a few links to get you started.
But ask yourself the only two questions that really matters, does this path have a heart, and am I willing to walk it?
Richard