i remember times when i had this friend and i would ask him why people didnt like me and he said basically becuase i was pathetic. he didnt say that but he said i come on stuff like forums and ask people online and because i dont talk...and just other stuff that was really simple and true. but i still dont understand because theres people who do that too out there and they seem to be getting along just fine or ok.
i dont understand why people dont like me.
am i setting myself up for bad when i dont leave my house and dont meet people or is it possible to just get up and talk to someone whenever?
i feel like the only way to meet people is do drugs. because ive been able to get along with that type of crowd easier than others even though i hate it the most. and have been F-d over by them the most.
i always wanted to be in the "smart" crowd in high school or college but i was too rebellious too. they saw that and didnt like it. yet i was too scared and naive to be in the actual rebellious crowd. they saw that in me and made fun of me. so i was a complete and i mean complete loner.