i have teenage neighbors that make fun of me. asking me why i never leave the house. what am i supposed to say? "because i have no friends" "because im paranoid".
dont worry. i dont really hang around them anyway.
i left my hometown after my parents divorced with one parent. i was so happy to because i was the weird scary loner kid or the one everyone made fun of since my childhood in that town and i was happy to get away from the people. only to move here and its like its worse because ive had all these run-ins with my schiz.
so now im like a real scary loner who the news talks about and everyone should be afraid of. but thats not really me.
i feel like ive tricked and trained myself into this lifestyle but i havent. i have not. it just feels that way because everytime i think about changing i tell myself just to stay the same and dont worry about everyone elses thinkign.