My therapist asked me this question earlier, and I'm not sure if I was caught off guard or embarassed to the point of not being able to come up with an answer, or if I just kind of don't really have anything that I seriously fantasize about (though I doubt it's this option). I don't know. At the same time, I don't know if I REALLY don't know, or if there's just some weird mental block going on. It's strange.
For the longest time, I felt as though my sense of sexuality had disappeared. Even in being sexually involved with partners of mine, it always felt like it was more about them than it was about me. Like, it felt like I wasn't a part of my own sex life (as an aside, I've never experienced anything related to SA, so that's not a factor here). There was no sense of hunger or desire. I didn't think I had a sex drive.
Turns out that I proved myself completely wrong in that area, but I feel like I'm regaining and rediscovering this entire other side of myself that had previously gone missing, and I guess I'm in the process of learning more about myself and my sexuality. I figured it might be helpful on some level here to ask you lovely individuals what it is that YOU fantasize about. So, what do you fantasize about? What turns you on?
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