There is also an Eating Disorders forum on here. It may be more appropriate.

Boy, your list of foods to avoid is just horrifying.

But still, hating eating is completely abnormal. You would not survive without eating. Your hating eating should be immediately brought up to a professional's attention.

A person should be hedonistic about eating. It is hard with your list of forbidden foods, but it is the worthy goal.

Have you ever been hedonistic about food? When did all this stuff about feeling fat start?