*trigger warning for CSA and triggers*

i get really uncomfortable around little kids ages 3-7...its worse with little girls but it happens with both. its just this underlying creepy weird feeling. im always uneasy. i feel like a weirdo but i definitely have no desire or want to touch or hurt a little kid. its not like that at all. i feel like the little kid in some ways. i can play with them and talk to them but its always an underlying feeling. i am reminded of the person i suspect did something to me when i was little. he always pops in my head at these times. it makes me feel so weird. ive never understood it and always just pushed the feeling away and thought some people just arent kid people and maybe thats just me. as i start to pay more attention to it i wonder if its my brains subconscious way of trying to point out something that happened to me? does this make any sense?