I'm sorry it's taking so long to find an effective cocktail. Even when (I'm being optimistic) you do, it doesn't completely remove cycling, so the idea of a cure isn't reasonable. It's OK to take a break from trying to recover for a little while to recharge. Are you seeing a T as well, or just the pdoc? I ask because meds are not the only solution and usually a combination of both meds and talk therapy is best, especially early after diagnosis. A T can help you accept the dx and what it might mean to your life as well as help you explore strategies to make your life better even when you are sick.