Thank you very much for the reply dalila. Sometimes it's hard for me to see the negative in my cutting. Well, actually, most of the time I don't see the harm in it. I always see it as a good thing. Most of the things in my life set me apart from society. Everything seems to be an alternative to what is acceptable. I don't comform to society, as it has brought me much pain. For example, where I live if you're not a Christian, you are very unaccepted. I'm pagan. Homosexuality is dangerous here, but I still search out women. If somebody says what I'm doing is wrong by their standards, I do exactly what they consider wrong. I guess I'm making life harder for myself, but I just don't agree with most of society.

Sometimes it would be nice to feel guilt or shame about cutting, but I don't. Maybe that would make me quit. I feel intense pride, instead. Ok, I think I've gone too deep with this, maybe I'll have repercussions (neg) but I'll deal with them.