I was where you are and when I look back, I realized how resiliant we mothers can be. I used to hate asking for help, but what I found out was that some people got joy out of helping me because I was so grateful and would make the efforts to keep things together. Asking for help is not the same as asking for hand-outs because you are doing it for others and not yourself. But don't forget yourself. Occassionally get that little treat in for you. Your deserve it and one day this will all be a memory. For every down is an up.