i havent posted here for a while. simply because i have been feeling better. alot better. i feel it setting back in tho. anyways..
my parol officer is so frustrated with me, went to report and she was close to violating me because i got in a argument and was kicked outa the house. i let her know i have been feeling better, she seems to think everything is fine now and i can go full throtle with everything.i guess im just holding myself back.
but im scared she will get so frustrated n just say teheck with him. i dunno how to explain i have been locked up in this house or in jail for the last 2 1/2 years.and its hard for me to get back out in the world when u have been so isolated.. she seems to think ill get on meds and ill be ready to go... when i know if i have meds ill abuse them.. :./ hate to say it. i guess drug addiction is the first thing i need to beat. im hoping that i have been feeling so good because i have been clean for a week up intell last night..:/
and its not just a cycle. or its because i have just been distracting myself realy good and throwing all the negative thoughts out. kinda ignoring it...i sure as heck (yes telb said heck) dont want to be back in that hole....:/.sounds like im just cycling .
well i hope everyone else is doing ok.
your comments/replys are much appreciated.
-telb