I have experiemented with going off of them and it was a disaster. Both times, I had been doing well and had been stable for a while. My pdoc supported me in trying to stop meds (but he was skeptical). I became miserable and suicidal pretty quickly. I was honestly quite surprised, I figured I had beaten my depression, but pdoc was sorta "I told you so. Chronic condition, blah, blah, blah..."

I have come to accept that I will probably need (at least a little) medication for the rest of my life. I'm working on not judging myself for that. Somehow I have an easy time being compassionate and understanding that other people need meds, but I don't extend that same compassion to myself.

Best,
EJ