Hi guys, thank you for the kind words and sorry for the late response. I now have another diagnosis and an explanation as to why I have been having these dreams (when I eventually sleep). Over the past 4 weeks my mood has been getting worse and so has my mental health, and today my partner witnessed me having another major flashback (head slamming against the wall and everything) and tried to stop me but as I was still not as I like to say 'grounded' yet I attacked him too, not wanting to hurt him I just wasn't aware he was real. Anyway he was straight on the phone to the emergency doctor who came out and I explained everything that I can remember and he told me that I am now suffering from Psychotic Major Depression. I am now terrified as I know deep down that it is wrong but I still have huge paranoia about my meds and the doctor told me that he will give me another week then he is going to put me on anti psychotics and if I am still like this then he has no choice but to section me! I don't want that to happen to me, I just want to be better, I don't know what to do as I know that the way that I am thinking at the moment isn't right but I can't control it. (sorry about the essay)