I am really robotic about it as well. It's like recalling what I had for dinner. There are things I get emotional about...watching him beat my brother, hearing mom screaming, etc. But when it comes to my stuff I am cold as ice. The folks in residential told me that I could stop trying to feel it, that I could stop recounting it*. It happened, I remember blurs and actual's, but I don't need to remember it clearly or feel that again. It was so horrid that my mind shut it off, that in itself tells me that I don't want to feel it.
*I do realize that this is controversial, and it's just what I am doing and what I learned. If it is not helpful drop it in the trash bin.