I do not medicate anxiety induced by lack of sleep either (it would not even work), I would just rather not have it, period. Sleep is a must.

I must say, I do not understand why you do not seek sleep aid treatment (not mood stabilization but sleep aid which will in turn stabilize moods - that is the way it works).

I have had another "might as well have erased from life" day. I have slept at best 5 hours, and not in one stretch. I could not exercise in that state. I was cold all day long. I ate incredible quantities, partly trying to get warmer. Not at all my usual eating pattern. I managed to do something a few times that deserved the praise "good catch!" at work, but that is just my attention to detail working non-stop despite everything. I could not do anything creative. I did the mundane tasks, trying to be very careful, and that was it. I did not start on any new projects - nothing requiring creativity. I was just sitting at work looking at the clock and hoping for time to go faster. And I was sitting - shortening my life span. I was too tired to stand up and work standing, which is what I usually do for more than 60% of the time. I avoided people because I did not want to be seen yawning and with weird-looking eyes - they are weird, I know, I looked in the mirror. I had to be introduced to two Indian guys, and normally not a big deal, this became quite a chore.