thanks so much open eyes.. you sound like youve really done your research. i know im still very much a closed book. but im learning to open up with my t. as are the wolves. one has become significantly impatient. but when that happened in therapy today, my T spoke to that wolf and she calmed down. i dont really know how i feel about everything. theres not much emotion, and when there is its just blinding pain. im trying to be patient. but im feeling very cornered at the moment. i hope things improve. but its all so dark at the moment. im just frustrated i guess. ive held onto this for so long. and its just confusing and hurtful to cope with.