((((ToBe)))) I am sorry you are hurting so much right now. There is no reason for you to suffer like this. You are brave enough and have the courage to post here and to reach out. I would encourage you to speak with your md to discuss your feelings. Also, do you have a T that you can speak with? It is really important that you find that inner strength and make that call.

It is not an easy path, but there are people that truly care and really want to be there for you. I am glad you came here. There are good people here that can relate to what you are describing and are very caring.

Your health and well being are so important. Please continue to reach out. Please let us know how you are doing. Depression is real...you are not alone.

Rose