I am the one who is wondering why I cannot remember the physical events. The therapist is the one who wants me to have some emotional response to that which I do remember. She is not pressing me to remember the facts (which is the part I want), rather she is insistent I should be/did at the time having feeling something about what I do remember.

(what an unusual position for me to take - defending the therapist)(stark raving mad I tell you).