If I’ve learned anything form my own stuff it’s that the psyche works to protect the mind if not the body. Not being able to remember is not a bad thing unless you truly want to remember.
Personally, I reached a cut off point and decided enough was enough. The people I have been talking to on and of for the last twenty years have been very helpful and supportive. A kind of peace settled over me. I hope you find some peace too.
All said and done, it’s a long, long road. You AND the therapist should set the balance of how much to push it. Avoid being made to feel more uncomfortable than is necessary.