Hey, all, again. I know... I only come on when I have to ask something... I'm such a jerk. Lots of things to focus on, and such... not much computer time...

Anyway, I wanted to ask about something that has... erm... bothered me for a while. Like, a very long time. And something I didn't (and still don't) really understand. It was kinda blocked out of my mind for a very long time, because it was embarrassing.

Well, when I was younger, I don't know why, but I had a very active sex drive. It wasn't just curiosity either, it was desire. And all I knew was that anything to do with genitals was very bad, So I was extremly embaressed and ashamed about it. And, well... lets just say that as a child, multiple things above the "natural behavior" category applied to me on this page. (Nothing that involved other children, though.) http://www.handsonscotland.co.uk/top...general.html#1 And those things were repetative, too. Very often. And i was a smart kid, so I got away with a lot of it.

Obviously, reading that page kinda distressed me. As a kid and past, I thought maybe there was just something wrong with me, physically, that made me sexual at a young age. But reading up on it, and just thinking about it, also told me that this could happen if a child was sexually abused. Now, I have no recollection of this, but I was very young... like, easily less than 4 or 5, when I first remember these sexual things about myself. And I WAS molested at an older age by a family member, so it's not impossible to consider... (I don't feeling like typing that all again.)

So, do you think my early great sexual desire could be caused by some form of sexual abuse that I can't remember, or maybe a biological fluke, or some other reason? It would be nice to get some answers, It's been in the back of my mind and bothering me for so long... I don't know why I was like that.

(BTW, when I was a little older and learned that behavior like mine was frowned upon, I stopped cold turkey. I now even have a purity ring and am known for my self control.)

(Sorry I was vague, but it's still kinda in the back of my mind... and it's just embaressing.)